Friday, May 16th, 2014 Early Morning
Dear Journal,
Wow. It's been 8+ years since I've written those words and as far as I'm concerned, they're more than overdue. It's been three years that I first embraced my feeling "gifts" and a year since I realized how many more are like me. After a very nice 2 week vacation in which I was blissfully given a grace period from my abilities. I'm not currently hearing anything else. I'm not seeing shadow people anymore, just little shadow bugs, but then I am further away from God right now. I can't seem to focus and I think I have a major Sloth monkey and Gluttony hover... I think, anyway.
Even after all this time this is still all so new and strange. I'm still recovering from my 2-week non-feeling binger. It's strange... it's so much more difficult to bring feeling out than to to keep it in, but I suppose if it were easy we'd all be mind readers by now? But with impending Armageddon after my lifetime, I keep trying to figure out what the pattern is on both sides (light and dark).
Anyway, the reason I've opened up another journal...
I'm getting marks from everywhere. Or perhaps I spend too many hours logging the paranormal research. Of course, after my hits in California and then immediately after getting back home, I wouldn't be surprised if we have someone special on our tail. Unfortunately, there aren't really many answers about the who/what and why. Mom is in denial, but is slowly realizing that we might have a bigger role than we first thought. As much as I've fought the notion the that our family is important and that family means something much more than a collection of parents and children, I'm being shoved in a direction that throws into question all the components and foundation of my entire existence.
Tip of the Day: After three seasons of major charge in OUAT, I finally got a hit on the Lost Girl reference with Pan. Canadian scifi show "Lost Girl". Episode 3 featured an arachnid who could remove it's heart and bury it in a living body. With removable hearts being a huge staple in the concept of OUAT, I'm wondering if it's a clue...
